HI so today's blog post would be a little about myself.
So I grew up as a kid who loves to make friends. And I was super friendly and I love to talk to people so making friends wasnt a hard task for me. I used to actually play with random little kids my age at the playground. So when I went to kindergarten, it was actually quite an excitement for me because I'm getting to meet more friends. And kindergarten went by pretty quickly. We played and talked everyday at school. We mixed around and I'm quite pleased to say that I was friends with everybody in the class. But we grew up all too quickly and had to move on to primary school.
Primary school was a total whole new experience for me basically because the school hours are longer and most of the time, you spent it with your friends. And I did make a lot of friends when I first started out in Primary 1. So I didnt just know kids from my class, I knew kids from other classes as well, mostly because I sit in the school bus (so I have my group of friends who took schoolbus) and we change classes during mother tongue lessons (so I have my group of friends who studied chinese with me) and lastly I joined a puppetry workshop (it's like a short term cca) (so I have my group of friends who joined puppetry). So school was a pretty fun thing for me because of all the people I know. Gradually throughout that 6 years, I actually pretty much know everyone in my cohort. And I dare say it's because of the Eco-Logic Club cca which I took part in my upper primary years. That exposed me to a whole lot seniors and juniors.
Then come secondary school. Maybe at the start, we were all excited to go to secondary school, because it seems as if going to secondary school is a big deal! (You are all grown up and stuff) But then the excitement eventually die down and we seem to dread it. Basically in my first year of secondary school, I was actually kind of having fun with my classmates and stuff. but it was really a whole new experience for me because all my life I was in a co-ed school and now suddenly poof! I'm in an all girls school. So the experience is really different (that would be a topic for another blog post) and I get to make new friends too. And because in secondary school, it usually requires us to travel home, we kind of like go home together with friends. And I was okay with it at the start. But then comes Year 2.
Year 2 which is 2014 was a really changing year for me (another topic to write on) and I began to realise a lot of my dreams and stuff and I actually learn more things about life and become wiser. But yea, I guess this is also the year where I start changing. And somehow along the way, I kind of became quieter, less opinionated (I still am pretty opinionated but I just dont voice out anymore) and most of all, I think I have come to hate interacting. So back then in those days, I would be glad to go home with friends, go out with friends, say hi to a long-time-no-talk friend. But now, I just hate the idea of interaction. So these days, I actually rejected a lot of movie outings and I give all sorts of excuses (my friends would probably kill me if they ever know this) just so I can dont go out with friends. And I hardly even go home with friends anymore. Why? Okay look, I used to have this personal rule, actually I still hold it to heart (it's just I never got to use it much now that I have decided to become a loner) but this rule states that if I were to go home with friends, I would want to entertain them and interact with them, but if they so much as took out their phone without it ringing or vibrating, I have failed. So I think in the long run, I kind of got tired of having to "entertain" my friends and I think that you know I would actually be better off on my own. Lastly, if I see a long lost old friend of mine from a distance during my journey to wherever, I would rather take a detour, the long route just so I wouldnt have to meet this friend and talk to him/her. That's just how bad it is. Like I would rather walk more than to have just a friendly talk.
I kind of dislike myself now for being so anti-social and such but honestly I dont know why I'm becoming like this. Right now, I'm going to start Year 3 in the next school term and we are gonna have new classes and that means new friends and ice-breaker games (I hate ice-breaker games). I'm actually dreading the idea more than looking forward to it. :(
And that is the end of my blog post about how anti-social I have become over the years. Please feel free to comment below if you would like to share your experience and stuff. Any tips and suggestions would be great too! :D
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